Today was a very very bad day.
First, someone whom i thought i could have trusted betrayed that simple trust. That someone assured me with everything that he would keep his eye very closely to murffy and would not let her eat anything. He fed her not one bite, but half the slice of a bread. Thats A LOT for a 5 mths old pup. Reason being for not suppose to feed dogs with bread is because of the yeast present. There’s so much things that one needs to know before they can actually start preparing meals for the dogs, but without knowing anything, you just feed it to her. Whenever i say no, there MUST be a reason behind it. I love my dog. I love it, why would i stop her eating something that she loves and that if that thing would cost no harm to her health? Am i wrong to be angry? I do so much things for her, I feed her well everyday, i make sure she’s hygenic, i brush her teeth, i buy her toys almost once every week, i take very good care of her diet. I buy heartworm tablets for her to prevent her getting heartworms, i buy thicks prevention for her all solely for her health welfare. And after doing all these, anyone can just feed her anything thats bad for her? Then wouldn’t all my effort be wasted?
I didn’t flare, i talked nicely, however disappointedly questioning that someone, why can’t you call and ask me first? Why? I asked you once, i asked you twice, i asked you thrice, ” you really fed her with bread ah?” . Do you know, how badly, how desperately i was hoping you to say, ” No la ~ Just kidding with you”. But you reply bluntly” really, half a slice”. I was devastated i swear. Thinking to myself, is it that i’m wrong to have trusted you in the first place or that its you that really couldnt do me this simple favour? So silence took over very promptly and after eating, i said i wanna leave. You opened the door, and the moment i stepped out, you closed and locked the gate. Leaving me with the bag, the super heavy file and with the leash on my hand. While crossing the road, I had to carry murffy. While crossing very narrow roads, i have to carry her. While crossing the T junctions, i have to carry her. While having to walk through the very squeezy path. i have to carry her. Yes, i did it all with one hand. When i reached home, my hand was so sore, i was sweating so badly. No, its not that i can’t leave without you, but seriously, wat have i done wrong to deserve this?
You posted: I’m nothing in your eyes
Is that the case? For little things, you say that. What exactly have i done that made you say that? From the moment i left your house till i walk all the way home alone, till now, 1.45am. Did you even ask: Have you reached home SAFELY? Have you? So now, can i say to you: I’m nothing in your eyes
I could have slept at 11 plus. But its 1.45am going to 2am, why am i still here? Cos, i can’t sleep. Why? Cos, i’m thinking. Of what? You. But so what? You don’t give a damn.
And now, i’m dead beat. Mentally and physically. I guess. I’m not suitable to be in a relationship.
I’m now happy with my life. I’m very busy with the tuitions i’m having and the responsibility i have towards murffy. So, i think, breakup should be the best solution for now. We needa cool down. Since, you think that you’re nothing in MY eyes, and that I think I’M nothing in YOUR eyes.
Period.
